I went for so long with the same way of thinking, yet with so many changes occurring. Most people do both at the same time, but I did each part separately. Through teenage life, I studied life and everything in general, AND played the 'game'. I was only meant to do one of the two, as I've found out, but it was all so much like a movie, and I'm not sure that that many people saw it just the way I did, although of course, people will tell me I'm wrong...
I must have 'overworked my batteries'. Now, I'm the one who gets called wierd alot of the time, even though I see them as the wierd ones having not studied the world as much as I have already.
I have found that you gain total fulfilment out of life by experiencing amazing events, whether real or in your imagination then by analysing the event(s), but not in too much detail, or by not analysing them at all, because then you can retain the powerful positive (or negative) memories and then use them as 'superpowered energy' combined with your willpower. Memories are probably the most important aspect of the human brain. I believe they are part of the secret to having 'superhuman powers'.